I am a bundle of nerves

   if you only knew.

knew what twitches inside me

just under this yellow-skinned face

    you describe as inscrutable.

I cringe and then rage

against your chosen word.

I am not inpenetrable, after all. 

If I were not penetrable, I would not be entertaining this particular fantasy. 

The one where I stand up, while you continue prattling on about what you prattle

stand up

right here

right now

and denounce our friendship

as I announce you as the cloaked racist

you are ~ in this moment.

I am a bundle of humanity

   if only you knew.

@junemoon   2007