I started out my Tuesday morning by sitting on my eyeglasses. My prescription eyeglasses. My one and only pair of prescription eyeglasses. The same pair of eyeglasses that I have worn for 7+ years. My ass bent them up pretty bad. They are all catty-wompus (if that isn’t a word then I’ve been making it up for many years) and sit on my face totally off kilter. Oh, did I mention that they are the seamless bifocal, a progressive lens to be exact. Have you ever tried seeing out of half a bifocal?
You might be asking right about now why I haven’t just gotten another pair. Well I tried but since I need anti-glare or Scotchguarding cuz gosh darn it I suffer from nightblindness and regularly use a computer, the lenses would take 7-10+ days to arrive. I am scheduled to return to California within that time frame. So I am going around bumping into stuff and am taking Ibuprofen to combat the headaches that looking through crooked bifocals brings on.
I think the moral of this story (there is always a moral, right?) is that I need to take better care of my physical self. I have been trying to order new eyeglasses for over two years. Unsuccessfully. Not all of the failure is my own (i.e., wrong prescription, incompetent optometrist, etc.) but there are big chunks of responsibility that I must claim. You see (pun intended I guess), I have a tough time getting myself to any kind of health care professional. I don’t trust them, have had poor experiences with them, go long bouts with no health insurance, and often times cannot afford the over inflated medial costs. But most of all, my feet dragging has to do more with not valuing myself enough to take care of my physical medical needs.
This coming new year, I want to make this habit different. I must make this different. I deserve to take good care of me.
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Thursday, December 20, 2007 at 6:44 am
Sang-Shil
junemoon, I think that’s a great resolution, and one that I need to do also. I share your suspicion of healthcare providers, but mostly because they tell me things that I don’t want to hear that are, unfortunately, true.
Thursday, December 20, 2007 at 11:17 pm
junemoon
Sang-Shil ~ It’s a good thing I think to have others to help encourage us and support us in making changes toward making our health a priority. Here’s sending you good vibes in your venture in addressing your health concerns. Sometimes I feel paralyzed when it comes to first, locating a physician and then making myself make an appointment, and then actually going ~ it all takes every ounce of resolve that I can muster. I’m really hoping I can make it different for myself sooner than later. junemoon